THE MONSTER ...

FRIGHTENED CHILD ALL ALONE APPROACHING FOOTSTEPS ,CREAKING FLOOR ,FEARING WHAT'S BEYOND THAT DOOR .I CLOSE MY EYES AND PRETEND TO SLEEP AND PRAY THE LORD MY SOUL TO KEEP ,I'M JUST TO YOUNG AND FAR TO WEAK ,IT'S OK I ONLY WANT TO TAKE A PEAK .DO NOT SCREAM ,DONT YOU MAKE A SOUND ,GRIPPING HANDS MY WRISTS ARE BOUND .A PILLOW TAKES MY BREATH AWAY ,I'M JUST A CHILD AND EASY PREY ,I CAN NOT FIGHT NOR RUN AWAY,A HELPLESS PRISONER IN EVERY WAY .MY INNOCENCE HAS LEFT MY SOUL ,I'M JUST A CHILD WITH NO CONTROL ,LEFT TO ALWAYS FEAR THE DARKNESS OF THE NIGHT ,THE MONSTER IS NEVER OUT OF SIGHT .IT ISN'T BEHIND MY CLOSET DOOR OR BENEATH MY BED NOR ON MY FLOOR. I FOLD MY TINY HANDS TO PRAY THAT THIS MONSTER WILL DISAPPEAR SOMEDAY OR BE GIVEN STRENGTH TO FIGHT IT BACK BUT I'M JUST A CHILD IT'S STRENGTH I LACK.MY BED IS SOAKED WITH SALTY TEARS ,PLEASE OH LORD PLEASE CALM THESE FEARS BUT AS THE DAYS TURN INTO YEARS THE MONSTER STILL CONTROLS ALL MY FEARS .NIGHTMARES COME IN THE DARKEST NIGHT ,SILENT SCREAMS UNTIL THE LIGHT.WHY DID THIS MONSTER HURT ME SO AND TAKE THE INNOCENCE FROM INSIDE MY SOUL .NOW I HAVE BECOME A MAN BUT THE MONSTER WON ,HIS WAS A WELL LAYED PLAN THAT HAS JUST BEGUN THIS FRIGHTENED CHILD WILL ALWAYS BE AFRAID AND CONTINUE TO PUSH EVERYONE AWAY,THE MONSTER STILL CONTROLS HIS FEARS EVEN AFTER ALL THESE YEARS.I WEAR THE SCARS OF A HELPLESS CHILD AND AS A MAN THE PAIN HAS COMPILED.SO THE MONSTER HAS HAD HIS WAY ,IT CONTROLS MY LIFE TO THIS VERY DAY. THE TORTURE IS FRESH INSIDE MY MIND ,CRIMSON TEARS HAVE LEFT ME BLIND ,FADED VISIONS OF A NORMAL AND HAPPY LIFE CUT THROUGH MY SOUL LIKE THE SHARPEST KNIFE .WHY DOES EVERYONE GIVE UP ON ME? WHY CANT THEY SEE I'M HELPLESS PRISONER ,PLEASE OH LORD, PLEASE SET ME FREE .I WAS JUST A CHILD WHY DIDN'T YOU SEND AN ANGEL FOR PROTECTING ME? WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME? YOU LET THAT MONSTER TAKE MY SOUL ,INSIDE MY HEART A GAPING HOLE ,I'M JUST A MAN WHO ISN'T WHOLE ,WHO LET HIS FEARS TAKE CONTROL.NOW I'M LEFT ALL ALONE TO FIGHT THE FEAR THAT COMES AT NIGHT WHEN WILL THIS MONSTER BE OUT OF SIGHT? WHY CANT ANYONE SEE ALL THE LOVE INSIDE OF ME ? PLEASE OH LORD ONE FINAL PLEA ..SEND DOWN AN ANGEL TO WALK WITH ME ,TO LIFT ME UP AND CARRY ME ,WIPE THESE TEARS FROM BLOOD SHOT EYES AND EASE THE PAIN FROM A HEART THAT CRIES..PLEASE OH LORD WHY CANT THEY SEE THAT FRIGHTENED CHILD INSIDE OF ME ,PLEASE OH LORD TO YOU I PRAY TO REMOVE THAT PILLOW ..SO I CAN SAY ..THERE IS A MONSTER AS YOU ALL CAN SEE ,IT TOOK THE VERY BEST FROM INSIDE OF ME ..THERE IS A MONSTER YES IT'S PLAIN TO SEE BUT THAT MONSTER ISN'T ME..