MY SOLILOQUY

THIS IS MY SOLILOQUY CAPTURED DEEP FROM INSIDE OF ME ,POURING OUT INTO OPEN AIR MY WORDS SOMEHOW DISAPPEAR. IT BECOMES THE SILENCE THAT I FEAR WITH NOONE NEAR THESE SPOKEN WORDS YOU CAN NOT HEAR. MY SOLILOQUY ,PLEASE BECOME MY EULOGY AND SAY GOODBYE TO WHO I USED TO BE .DO NOT PRAISE ME YESTERDAY SPEAK ONLY FOR THE MAN I AM TODAY .MY SOLILOQUY ,IN MY PAST YOU WERE AN ADVERSARY BUT IN THIS MOMENT YOU ARE A FRIEND TO ME .GUARD EACH THOUGHT BEFORE I SPEAK AND HIDE THE WORDS THAT MAKE ME WEAK . MY SOLILOQUY IN THE MOMENTS YOU COMPRISE ,LEARN TO QUICKLY RATIONALIZE ,SCRUTINIZE ALL OF MY REPLIES BEFORE THEY LEAD TO MY GOODBYES. MY SOLILOQUY WHEN WE SPOKE OF MY LATTER RAIN DELIVERED FROM MY TEARS OF PAIN ,THE TROUBLED WORDS SPOKE IN VAIN IT IS ONLY LONELINESS THAT I GAIN .MY SOLILOQUY IN REMEMBRANCE MAY REVERENCE BECOME MY GUIDE AND LOCK AWAY ANY WORDS OF PRIDE .MY SOLILOQUY ,IN EACH FUTURE DIALOGUE MAY LASTING IMPRESSIONS BE GAINED ONLY FROM MY EPILOGUE .IN THE ACT AND AS I SPEAK BECOME THE KNOWLEDGE AND WISDOM THAT I LACK ,SO I MAY KEEP MY WORDS AND NOT RETRACT .MY SOLILOQUY ONLY SHOW THE BEST OF ME AND BECOME MY EYES SO THAT I MAY SEE ,IT IS THE WORDS THAT MAKE THIS MAN ,CHOOSE EACH WISELY FOR THEY BECOME MY FINAL STAND ..

LOVE LETTERS

I RELEASE MY WORDS TO THE OPEN AIR ,IN A GUST OF WIND ,INHALE THEM DEEP IF THEY FIND YOU THERE .I HAVE TRAVELED FAR ,DISTANCED MYSELF FROM THE HORIZONS THAT PROVIDED COMFORTS HOME ,LIKE MY WORDS I RELEASE MYSELF TO ROAM .IF THIS BECOMES MY MEANS ,IF ALL IS AS IT SEEMS ,THEN I WAS A FOOLISH MAN,BLINDED BY PASSIONS LUST .THEN NOT JUST A BITE FROM FORBIDDEN FRUITS BUT A GLUTINOUS FEAST SO I HAVE TASTED SIN ,STARED IN THE DOUBTFUL EYE'S OF THE BEAST .OLIVE SKIN AS THICK AS HUSK LIKE ARMOR COVERS HER BUST .BENEATH ARE THE SOULS WHO MET THE CRUEL DEMISE FROM THE VENOM OF THE SERPENT POISONED WITH LIES.TORTURED WITH NO IMPUNITY ,NO SOLACE A GRUESOME END ,NO WORDS ,NO COMFORTS ,NO SYMPATHY NOR EMPATHY TO LEND.A BROKEN HEART LEFT FOR DEAD ,THE MEASURE OF THIS MAN COMES INSTEAD .MY ENEMIES ARE MANY WITH VIOLENT WORDS AS SHARP AS SWORDS SEEK ME OUT FOR PLEASURE'S CHEAP REWARDS .WOUNDED THOUGH THE SHARPEST SWORD CAN NOT PENETRATE MY SOUL ,I REMAIN IN TACT ,IT IS MY SPIRIT THAT WILL KEEP ME WHOLE.WARS ARE WAGED FROM IGNORANCE AND HATE ,TO GIVE INTO THESE EMOTIONS WOULD SEAL MY FATE .I WILL NOT FAULTER OR GIVE INTO PRIDE ,I WILL THIRST WELCOME THIS DROUGHT ,SWALLOW IT DOWN AND CAST IT ASIDE .IF IT IS MY HEART THAT IS BROKEN AS WELL AS MY MIND ,THEN I WILL FUSE SORROW'S PIECES TO BECOME ONE OF A KIND .I WILL TAKE PARTS OF MY HEART I HAVE WORN UPON MY SLEEVE AND USE THEM AS A CONSTANT REMINDER TO ALWAYS BELIEVE .EACH MISTAKE I HAVE MADE ,I WILL MAKE THEM PAST ,I WILL LEARN BRAND NEW LESSONS ,BUILD A STRONG CHARACTER ,A FOUNDATION TO LAST.IN THIS FOUNDATION THERE WILL ALWAYS BE CRACKS ,SHOWN IMPERFECTIONS FROM THE THINGS THAT I LACK BUT IN EACH DAY OF DESPAIR TO HOLD ME TOGETHER I WILL MAKE A REPAIR ,I WILL TEND TO MYSELF WITH THE DEEPEST OF CARE WITH UNCONDITIONAL LOVE OF WHICH THE LIKES I WILL NEVER COMPARE .I AM STRONG AS WELL AS WEAK ,I AM OUTSPOKEN AS WELL AS MEEK.I WILL SURRENDER ONLY TO THE COMFORTS I SEEK ,I WILL NOT CONFORM OR SUBMIT TO SURROUNDINGS SO BLEAK,FOR I AM MADE FROM THE STUFF THAT MAKES ME UNIQUE .IT IS NO LONGER YOUR CLOSURE ,WORDS OR EVEN A GOODBYE THAT I SEEK ,FOR IT WAS ALL THE HATRED AND CRUEL ACTS THAT KEPT ME SO WEAK ,NOW I'D LIKE TO THANK YOU FOR I HAVE FOUND STRENGTH AND THE SUMMIT I HAVE REACHED.I HAVE ATTAINED CLARITY ,A COMFORT SO DEEP ,I HAVE WASHED UPON SHORE FROM THE OCEAN I WEAP.I EXPLORE ALL THE BEAUTY OF NEW LANDSCAPES THAT SURROUND AND BEGIN THIS NEW JOURNEY WITH FEET NEVER TOUCHING THE GROUND .I RELEASE MYSELF TO THE OPEN AIR AND IN A GUST OF WIND I INHALE AND ACROSS A BRAND NEW HORIZON I SOAR ,I HAVE FOUND THE COMFORT'S OF HOME BY WATCHING YOU ROAM .I HAVE NOT LOST ,I SIMPLY HAVE GAINED FOR I HAVE FOUND STRENGTH,LOVE AND HAPPINESS INSIDE AND I HAVE FINALLY REALIZED IT WAS THERE ALL ALONG ,INSIDE OF ME..IT WAS MINE ...FOR ME TO PROVIDE .SO MY REFLECTION TO THY OWN SELF BE TRUE FOR THE FIRST TIME I LOVE YOU AS WE BEGIN A JOURNEY BRAND NEW..

A BRAND NEW DAWN..

PARTING WAYS ,A BRAND NEW DAWN ,KEEP THAT SMILE MY LOVE IS GONE .ALWAYS SING AND ALWAYS DANCE AND FILL YOUR LIFE WITH TENDER ROMANCE .FILL YOUR DAYS WITH LAUGHTERS JOY AND ALL YOUR NIGHTS WITH PASSIONS WARMTH.KEEP YOUR PLACE UNDER THE SUN AWAY FROM SHADE AND WHAT'S UNDONE.SPEAK YOUR WORDS WITH BEAUTY'S SOUND AND REMAIN IN PEACE WITH WHAT YOU'VE FOUND.STAND UPON THE HIGHEST MOUNTAIN PEAK EXTEND YOUR ARMS AND REACH FOR THE SKY AND LAY YOUR HANDS UPON THE DREAMS YOU SEEK.MAY YOUR REFLECTION ALWAYS BE KIND TO YOU AND MAY ALL YOUR MOMENTS FEEL BRAND NEW.WHEN YOUR LIFE IS FILLED WITH SORROWS RAIN MAY THE LOVE OF OTHERS EASE YOUR PAIN.KEEP THE MUSIC IN A MORNINGS SONG AND READ EACH NOTE INTO A BRAND NEW DAWN.MAY YOU ACCEPT THE EMBRACE OF COMFORTS ARMS AND RECEIVE THE BOUNTY OF ENDLESS CHARMS .MAKE THE SWEETEST MEMORIES AND KEEP THEM FOR ETERNITY AND LIVE LIFE WITH GRACE AND SERENITY.KEEP THE GENTLE WIND UPON YOUR BACK AND THE STARS WITHIN YOUR SIGHT USE THEM AS YOUR GUIDE THROUGH EVERY RESTLESS NIGHT.MAY YOU SHINE WITH LIGHT AN INNER GLOW AND USE YOUR LIGHT FOR LOVE TO GROW.ALWAYS SOAR SAFE UPON AN ANGELS WINGS AND HEAR THE MELODY YOUR BEAUTY BRINGS.MAY THE PUREST LOVE COME YOUR WAY TO KEEP YOU SAFE FROM YESTERDAY,SHED ONE LAST TEAR AND RELEASE YOUR PAST AND EMBRACE FOREVER AND MAKE IT LAST.SEE YOURSELF A VISION OF BEAUTY DIVINE AND PAINT PORTRAIT TO LAST THROUGH TIME.YOUR ONE OF KIND AND KIND AS ONE ,ONE DAY IN YOUR LIFE HAS JUST BEGUN .SO EACH NIGHT WHEN I FALL UPON MY KNEES TO PRAY ,I PRAY FOR AN UNDYING LOVE TO COME YOUR WAY .MAY YOU NEVER REGRET OR WONDER WHY OR LOOSE THAT SPARKLE FROM WITHIN YOUR EYE,LIVE ,LOVE ,LAUGH ,FLY MY ANGEL SOAR AND BE FREE THERE SIMPLY WASN'T ENOUGH INSIDE OF ME.GO NOW LOVE BE HAPPY AND WHOLE AND HEAL THE WOUNDS INSIDE YOUR SOUL.PARTING WAYS,KEEP THAT SMILE MY LOVE IS GONE I WISH YOU ENDLESS LOVE IN A BRAND NEW DAWN..

THE MONSTER ...

FRIGHTENED CHILD ALL ALONE APPROACHING FOOTSTEPS ,CREAKING FLOOR ,FEARING WHAT'S BEYOND THAT DOOR .I CLOSE MY EYES AND PRETEND TO SLEEP AND PRAY THE LORD MY SOUL TO KEEP ,I'M JUST TO YOUNG AND FAR TO WEAK ,IT'S OK I ONLY WANT TO TAKE A PEAK .DO NOT SCREAM ,DONT YOU MAKE A SOUND ,GRIPPING HANDS MY WRISTS ARE BOUND .A PILLOW TAKES MY BREATH AWAY ,I'M JUST A CHILD AND EASY PREY ,I CAN NOT FIGHT NOR RUN AWAY,A HELPLESS PRISONER IN EVERY WAY .MY INNOCENCE HAS LEFT MY SOUL ,I'M JUST A CHILD WITH NO CONTROL ,LEFT TO ALWAYS FEAR THE DARKNESS OF THE NIGHT ,THE MONSTER IS NEVER OUT OF SIGHT .IT ISN'T BEHIND MY CLOSET DOOR OR BENEATH MY BED NOR ON MY FLOOR. I FOLD MY TINY HANDS TO PRAY THAT THIS MONSTER WILL DISAPPEAR SOMEDAY OR BE GIVEN STRENGTH TO FIGHT IT BACK BUT I'M JUST A CHILD IT'S STRENGTH I LACK.MY BED IS SOAKED WITH SALTY TEARS ,PLEASE OH LORD PLEASE CALM THESE FEARS BUT AS THE DAYS TURN INTO YEARS THE MONSTER STILL CONTROLS ALL MY FEARS .NIGHTMARES COME IN THE DARKEST NIGHT ,SILENT SCREAMS UNTIL THE LIGHT.WHY DID THIS MONSTER HURT ME SO AND TAKE THE INNOCENCE FROM INSIDE MY SOUL .NOW I HAVE BECOME A MAN BUT THE MONSTER WON ,HIS WAS A WELL LAYED PLAN THAT HAS JUST BEGUN THIS FRIGHTENED CHILD WILL ALWAYS BE AFRAID AND CONTINUE TO PUSH EVERYONE AWAY,THE MONSTER STILL CONTROLS HIS FEARS EVEN AFTER ALL THESE YEARS.I WEAR THE SCARS OF A HELPLESS CHILD AND AS A MAN THE PAIN HAS COMPILED.SO THE MONSTER HAS HAD HIS WAY ,IT CONTROLS MY LIFE TO THIS VERY DAY. THE TORTURE IS FRESH INSIDE MY MIND ,CRIMSON TEARS HAVE LEFT ME BLIND ,FADED VISIONS OF A NORMAL AND HAPPY LIFE CUT THROUGH MY SOUL LIKE THE SHARPEST KNIFE .WHY DOES EVERYONE GIVE UP ON ME? WHY CANT THEY SEE I'M HELPLESS PRISONER ,PLEASE OH LORD, PLEASE SET ME FREE .I WAS JUST A CHILD WHY DIDN'T YOU SEND AN ANGEL FOR PROTECTING ME? WHY HAVE YOU FORSAKEN ME? YOU LET THAT MONSTER TAKE MY SOUL ,INSIDE MY HEART A GAPING HOLE ,I'M JUST A MAN WHO ISN'T WHOLE ,WHO LET HIS FEARS TAKE CONTROL.NOW I'M LEFT ALL ALONE TO FIGHT THE FEAR THAT COMES AT NIGHT WHEN WILL THIS MONSTER BE OUT OF SIGHT? WHY CANT ANYONE SEE ALL THE LOVE INSIDE OF ME ? PLEASE OH LORD ONE FINAL PLEA ..SEND DOWN AN ANGEL TO WALK WITH ME ,TO LIFT ME UP AND CARRY ME ,WIPE THESE TEARS FROM BLOOD SHOT EYES AND EASE THE PAIN FROM A HEART THAT CRIES..PLEASE OH LORD WHY CANT THEY SEE THAT FRIGHTENED CHILD INSIDE OF ME ,PLEASE OH LORD TO YOU I PRAY TO REMOVE THAT PILLOW ..SO I CAN SAY ..THERE IS A MONSTER AS YOU ALL CAN SEE ,IT TOOK THE VERY BEST FROM INSIDE OF ME ..THERE IS A MONSTER YES IT'S PLAIN TO SEE BUT THAT MONSTER ISN'T ME..