AN OLD WOODEN DOOR ...

I GAZE UPON AN OLD WOODEN DOOR,A MIND FILLED WITH WONDER ,SHALL I OPEN AND EXPLORE? IF I OPEN FOREVER MORE ? OR JUST BEYOND SPECTERS OF PAIN I MUST ENDURE. IF I KEEP IT CLOSED MANY QUESTIONS WILL REMAIN , HAS MY LIFE BEEN LIVED IN VAIN ?SHALL I SLEEP WITH COMFORTS CLOSURE SAFE AT HOME ? OR SHALL I OPEN AND SIMPLY ROAM ?SHALL I WANDER AND JOURNEY FREE AND RELEASE THIS FEAR THAT GROWS IN ME ? FOR I HAVE WALKED THE BEATEN PATH ,MY FEET BLISTERED AND CALLUSED ,WALKED FOR MANY MILES WITH NO DIRECTION ,MY DESTINATION UNKNOWN .I HAVE SEEN MANY UNFRIENDLY FACES IN THESE PLACES I ROAM ,IF I CONTINUE TO WALK THIS BEATEN PATH..I ROAM ..UNTIL I FIND THIS PLACE CALLED HOME .I GAZE UPON AN OLD WOODEN DOOR MY TIRED FEET SEEM WEIGHTED UPON THIS FAMILIAR FLOOR ,I HEAR THE ECHOES WITHIN THESE HALLOWED HALLS ,A PRISONER TO AN OLD WOODEN DOOR. A DISTANT SHADOW STANDING TALL DANCES UPON AN OLD CRACKED WALL ,A CASUAL SOLILOQUY ,MAGICAL TRANQUILITY,A REFLECTION OF WHOM I WAS MEANT TO BE. A TURN TO GRACE , WHISPER VIGILS OF COMMON PLACE, A SHADOW OF A MAN WHO HAS WORN NO FACE ,LACKS EXPRESSION OR WORLDY PACE . I WALK A BEATEN PATH ON A FAMILIAR FLOOR PASSING AN OLD CRACKED WALL AND IN THE DISTANCE I GAZE UPON AN OLD WOODEN DOOR ,JUST BEYOND A WILTING DREAM OF FOREVER MORE ..SHALL I OPEN AND EXPLORE ? OR FOREVER DANCE WITH SHADOWS OF THE PAIN I MUST ENDURE ...

TRUE COLORS

STRIPED OF MY SKIN TO BARE MY SOUL ,CRIMSON RED ,THIS COLOR BOLD ,INSIDE OUT HIS STORY TOLD .ETERNAL LIGHT, THE COLOR WHITE LIKE THE SNOWFLAKES FROM WINTER NIGHTS .VOID OF COLOR, BLACK ON MY DARKEST DAYS,FADING SUNSET BREAK INTO BLOSSOM MY MALAISE.BLACK AND WHITE INSIDE THE EYE OF THE RAGING STORM RISING FROM MY PAIN IT TAKES IT'S FORM,SWIRLING WINDS GREY IS BORN .TODAY I THINK I AM BLUE ,I DRINK THE SALTY OCEANS DEEP I BARE THE SCARS WHEN I AM WEAK ,I INHALE THE OPEN SKY WHEN CONFUSION HAS ME WONDER WHY .DOWN FROM THE CLOUDS A RAINBOW ,NOW I THINK I AM GREEN ,CAPTURE BEAUTY WITH EVERY NUANCE OF THIS SCENE,IT'S PURPLE HAZE TAKES AWAY MY MALAISE RESTORES MY SPIRIT WITH A SIMPLE GAZE .I AM YELLOW EMBRACING FEAR WITH REGRET FROM EACH PASSING YEAR AND I AM YELLOW IN SUNLITE RAYS THAT WELCOME IN BRAND NEW DAYS .I AM ORANGE WHEN I'M FEELING BUTTERFLIES ,I AM ORANGE WHEN I LOOK INTO HER EYES ..LOVE IS ALL THE COLORS THAT SURROUND ,ALL EMOTION UP AND DOWN ,A PERCEPTUAL INTERPRETATION AND JOURNEY SO PROFOUND .I WEAR EVERY COLOR UPON THIS SOUL ..I WILL WEAR THEM ALL UNTIL ..I AM WHOLE ..

GOODBYE..

THE DAY YOU FORGOT TO SAY GOODBYE ,I LISTENED CLOSE WITH NO REPLY ,A RIVER'S SORROW, A GENTLE CRY, FILLED WITH TEARDROPS FROM BLOODSHOT EYES.SILENCE ECHOES MY DISCONTENT ,WORDS LEFT UNSPOKEN AS I LAMENT .MORNING'S PROMISE TO SAY GOODBYE TO YESTERDAY AND WELCOME IN A BRAND NEW DAY,SUNSHINE SAYS GOODBYE TO RAIN AND HAPPINESS THE SAME TO PAIN .VIBRANT SMILES A GOODBYE TO FROWNS ,ONE WORD GOODBYE THAT BRINGS FORTH SILENCE INTO SOUND.SEASONS CHANGE BEGINNING WINTER AND ENDING FALL,A GOODBYE BEFORE EACH NEW BEGINNINGS CALL.YOU MAY NOT BELIEVE IN GOODBYE'S BUT YOU CAN NOT SEE THESE TEARS I CRY ,A GOODBYE SO I DO NOT WONDER WHY ,A GOODBYE TO DRY THESE BLOODSHOT EYES.GOODBYE IS JUST A SIMPLE WORD AND TO YOU IT MAY SEEM OBSURD BUT WITH GOODBYE A BROKEN HEART IS CURED,QUIET MOMENTS ,WORDS OBSCURED ,VISIONS BLURRED FROM A WORD THAT YET'S BEEN HEARD.WE SAY GOODBYE IN MANY WAYS ,A SOFT GOODBYE AT NIGHT WE PRAY,WE SAY GOODBYE EVERYDAY ,WE SAY GOODBYE TO EVERY YEAR ,A GOODBYE A WORD WE NEED TO HEAR .THE NEEDED CLOSURE I CAN NOT ATTAIN THIS SILENCE LEAVES ME HERE IN PAIN,SO I'LL ALWAYS WONDER WHY THE DAY YOU LEFT YOU FORGOT TO SAY GOODBYE ,A GOODBYE IS NOT THAT HARD TO SAY ,WE ARE REMINDED OF IT EVERDAY ..

ONE...

I DONT WANT TO LOVE YOU ANYMORE ,KEEP YOUR MEMORY NEVER MORE ,PRETEND IT ISN'T YOU WHO I ADORE .I WANT RUN SO FAR AWAY ,FAR FROM LOVE AND YOUR EMBRACE AND DISAPPEAR WITHOUT A TRACE .I WANT TO CONVINCE MYSELF YOU SIMPLY NEVER TOUCHED MY HEART , FIND A BRAND NEW WAY TO START ,PRETEND WITHOUT YOU I'M NOT TORN APART .I WANT TO TELL MYSELF YOU TRULY CARED AND WITHIN YOUR HEART YOU WERE JUST SCARED ,TORMENTED BY THE YEARS OF PAIN ,LIVING WITH A DAMAGED HEART FROM ALL CONSTANT DAILY STRAIN.I WANT TO BELIEVE THAT WHAT WE SHARED COULD HARDLY EVER BE COMPARED ,I WANT TO IGNORE THAT IT IS JUST NOT TRUE ,I NEVER GOT THE BEST OF YOU ,I WAS JUST A MOMENT ,PASSING TIME ,FORGOTTEN QUICKLY SO YOU CAN FIND AGAIN THE ONLY LOVE YOU KEPT INSIDE.WHEN I FELL IN LOVE WITH YOU I NEVER WANTED TO BE NUMBER TWO BUT ONE THING THAT I NEVER KNEW ,THAT BURIED DEEP INSIDE OF YOU WAS A LIGHT THAT BURNED FOR ONLY TWO,THAT TORCH IS KEPT INSIDE OF YOU ,FOR THE DAY HE RETURNS TO YOU..I WAS ONE ..BUT NOT THE ONE ,NOT THE ONE THAT EQUALS TWO ,NOT THE ONE WHO HAS THE LOVE DEEP INSIDE OF YOU ..I WANT TO TELL MYSELF I DONT LOVE YOU ANYMORE ,IT ISNT YOU WHO I ADORE,I'LL KEEP YOUR MEMORY NEVERMORE ..IT'S JUST TO LATE I FELL IN LOVE ,WHAT'S DONE IS DONE..I AM ONE ..JUST NOT THE ONE...

FAREWELL..

FIRST OFF I WOULD LIKE TO THANK EVERYONE WHO HAS SUPPORTED MYSELF AS WELL AS THE POETRY BLOG.WHICH LEADS ME TO THIS..I WILL NO LONGER BE WRITING ,FOR MANY YEARS I USED MY HEART FELT WORDS FOR EXPRESSION TO HOPEFULLY REACH OR TOUCH OTHERS WHO HAVE SHARED LIFES TRIALS AND TRIBULATIONS,ABUSE ,HEART BREAK ,LOOSING LOVED ONES ECT..I HAVE RECENTLY BEEN SHOWN WORDS MEAN VERY LITTLE AND NO MATTER THE MAGNITUTE OF WHAT PERSONAL DILEMA YOU FACE, YOU ARE SIMPLY ALONE IN THIS LIFE .I FIND NO PURPOSE, SOLICE,COMFORT OR REFUGE IN WORDS AT THIS POINT SO THE LAST POEM POSTED WILL IN FACT BE MY LAST . ALTHOUGH FLAWED I HAVE ALWAYS BEEN HONEST AND EXPRESSED LOVE AND LOYALTY BEYOND LIMITATIONS BUT IT HAS BEEN PROVEN TO ME RECENTLY THAT ALL OF THE ABOVE SIMPLY MEAN NOTHING .I NO LONGER BELEIVE IN THOSE SAME WORDS,LOVE OR EXPRESSION SO IT IS TIME FOR ME TO SAY FAREWELL, I TRULY HAVE BEEN A FOOLISH HEART . AGAIN I THANK AND LOVE THOSE WHO HAVE SUPPORTED MYSELF AND THE BLOG .FEEL FREE TO CONTACT ME IT WOULD BE NICE TO KNOW WHAT YOUR FAVORITE POEMS WERE ..BEST WISHES AND GOD BLESS ..TOMMY

REMEMBER LOVE..REMEMBER ME ?

HOW WILL YOU REMEMBER ME ? WILL YOU REMEMBER THE COLOR OF MY EYES AND THINGS THAT MADE ME SMILE ? WILL YOU REMEMBER THE WORDS THAT CAPTURED THE MOMENTS THAT MADE ME FEEL WORTH WHILE ? WILL YOU REMEMBER THE TOUCH OF MY HAND OR THE SOUND OF MY VOICE ,WILL YOU REMEMBER THE DAY WHEN YOU STILL HAD A CHOICE TO REACH OUT TO THE ONES THAT YOU LOVE AND SAY EXACTLY HOW YOU FEEL BEFORE THE MOMENT HAS PASSED? ,NOW YOU FOLD YOUR HANDS AND SPEAK AS YOU KNEEL.WILL REMEMBER THE LAUGHTER DESPITE ALL THE PAIN ?WILL YOU CHERISH EACH MEMORY YOU HAVE LEFT THAT REMAIN?WILL REMEMBER THE LOVE I KEPT DEEP IN MY HEART ?WILL YOU KEEP THAT SAME LOVE ON THE DAY THAT WE PART?WILL YOU REMEMBER MY HOPES AND KEEP ALIVE ALL OF MY DREAMS ? WILL YOU COMFORT THOSE I LOVE WHEN THEY COME APART AT THE SEAMS?WILL YOU REMEMBER OUR TALKS OR THE FEELINGS WE SHARE? ,WILL YOU REMEMBER MY EMBRACE OR THE WARMTH IN MY STARE? WILL YOU REMEMBER MY SECRETS AND THE DEPTH OF MY FEARS ? WILL YOU REMEMBER MY PAIN OR THE SOURCE OF MY TEARS ? WILL YOU REMEMEBR HOW GENTLY I EXPRESSED ALL MY LOVE ?WILL YOU REMEMBER MY WORDS AS YOU GAZE UP ABOVE ? WILL YOU REMEMBER MY VISION ? OR WILL PASSING TIME LEAVE YOU BLIND ? WILL YOU REMEMBER MY REFLECTION IN THE BEAUTY YOU FIND? WILL YOU REMEMBER A WHISPER MEANT JUST FOR YOUR EAR ? WILL YOU REMEMBER I STOOD ALONG SIDE OF YOU BECAUSE I HELD YOU SO DEAR? WILL YOU REMEMBER THESE WORDS THAT I LEAVE YOU TODAY ? WILL YOU REMEMBER FOR ALL YOUR TOMORROW'S I TRIED MY VERY BEST TO SAY THAT I LOVE YOU IN MY OWN SPECIAL WAY ? I WILL REMEMBER ALL OF THE LOVE AND HAPPINESS FROM WHICH YOU FILLED UP MY HEART ,I WILL REMEMBER I LOVE YOU TILL DEATH DO US PART ...

FOOLISH HEART..

TRICKED AGAIN FOOLISH HEART ,STRING ALONG ,PLAY THE PART ,IGNORED THE SIGNALS FROM THE START AND NOW YOUR HEART TORN APART.FOOLISH HEART YOU KNOW EACH RULE BUT YET YOU CHOOSE TO PLAY THE FOOL,FOOLISH HEART UPON YOUR SLEEVE TRICKED AGAIN NOW WATCH HER LEAVE .FOOLISH HEART YOUR SO ABSURD HOW YOU BELIEVE EACH AND EVERY WORD ,FOOLISH HEART A STEPPING STONE YOU FIND YOURSELF ALL ALONE ,FOOLISH HEART WHO HEARS YOUR CRIES ,ACCEPTING LIES AND ALIBIS.FOOLISH HEART IT IS YOU WHO'S BLIND ,MOVING FORWARD LOVE ,YOUR LEFT BEHIND .FOOLISH HEART YOU WERE A MOMENT, JUST A WAY TO KILL SOME TIME ,YOU WENT ALONG FOR THE RIDE ,SO FOOLISH HEART LOOSE YOUR PRIDE SHE NEVER CARED WHAT YOU HAVE INSIDE .FOOLISH HEART ANOTHER LAUGH AT YOUR EXPENSE ,TAKE A LOOK IT ALL MAKES SENSE,DID YOU OCCUPY HER MIND ? THE ANSWERS ARE NOT HARD TO FIND .FOOLISH HEART SHE SAID YOU WEREN'T A REAL MAN AND UNWORTHY OF HER HAND ,ALWAYS HAD ANOTHER PLAN ,ON CLOUD NINE BUT NOW YOU LAND AND BEFORE YOUR FEET HIT THE GROUND HER SMILING FACE LAUGHS AT YOUR FROWN.FOOLISH HEART HEAR HER SILENCE IT'S JUST FOR YOU ,NOW TELL ME WHAT YOU THOUGHT YOU KNEW? INTOXICATED ,HE LOOKS OK ,GOOD ENOUGH I'M BORED TODAY ,I KNOW HE SPILLS HIS FOOLISH HEART BUT HE HAS NO PLACE INSIDE THIS HEART .FOOLISH HEART OFTEN WEAK OPEN YOUR EYES ,PLEASE TAKE A PEEK YOUR NOT ONE SHE WILL SEEK.FOOLISH HEART ACCEPT YOUR ROLE ,LET THE MOMENT JUST UNFOLD ,LISTEN TO WHAT YOU'VE BEEN TOLD IT ISN'T THAT HER HEART IS COLD ,A DAY WITH YOU HAD GOTTEN OLD.FOOLISH HEART YOU LAY AWAKE WITH TEARS YOU WEAP ,PRAY TO LORD A SOUL TO KEEP ,FOOLISH HEART TAKE A LEAP ,WHAT OTHERS SOW YOUR LEFT TO REAP.FOOLISH HEART RUN ALONG ,GO AWAY WHERE YOU BELONG ,FAR AWAY ALL BY YOURSELF ,SHE'S IN LOVE WITH SOMEONE ELSE .FOOLISH HEART STAY BROKEN ,HAPPINESS IS NOT FOR YOU,LISTEN NOW STAY UNGLUED ,KEEP A VERY SOMBER MOOD AND LOOSE YOUR STRENGTH AND FORTITUDE.SO FOOLISH HEART DON'T MAKE HER ABSENSE DIFFICULT ,IT WILL ALWAYS BE THE SAME RESULT ,JUST LET HER WANDER FAR AWAY ,NOTHING LEFT FOR HER TO SAY AND ALWAYS REMEMBER SHE WAS SIMPLY BORED THAT DAY..